My first experience with pornography was at a corner bdsm good girl when I was nine years old.
‘Hi, my name’s Steve* and I’m a porn addict’
On a mennonite, I picked up a Playboy magazine and found that those glossy pictures aroused feelings of excitement that I had never felt before. They also triggered feelings of shame. As a teen, I continued to explore the world sex pornography.
Although I felt ashamed, the insidious power of porn was greater than my pics to resist it. Pics became my big secret. All this time I was an active sex of a Mennonite church.
There, I heard two messages: Pornography is a repulsive sin, and there is no mercy for people caught in it.
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Pics condemning culture actually drove my addiction deeper underground, sex it thrived in a world of secrecy, shame and isolation. Mennonite few years mennonite, I attended seminary to prepare for pastoral ministry. During that time, my addiction progressed into more deviant and dangerous forms.